Karaoke Dreams?

Singing, making music, creating art, its who I am. I’ve always had a song in my heart and a tune in my head, recently I just had to sing so I went to Karaoke I was a little nervous it had been a while. For the last 16 years I’ve been singing in choirs, on worship teams, leading worship sometimes and I had a lot of great experiences but today I remembered a few that had really been hard to let go of. The church is a funny place sometimes and when people are jealous and intimidated they don’t like to include you. One church actually told me there weren’t enough microphones for me to join the worship team. Well seriously, ok I tried to move on and be a bigger person, and then the pastor asked me one day where I would like to ‘serve’ in the church and I said um worship. He would let me do specials, or have me come up and share a prophetic chorus but his reply to what I had been told by his brother ‘the worship leader’ about there not being enough mics blew me away.

“Yes, they are intimidated by your voice and some of them are jealous, they have a lot of growing to do.”

What do you say to that? at the time I laughed because there was a time when I was younger that I enjoyed intimidating people, it was fun, but I had grown out of that thank god and I was really hurt. Things like this happened over and over again at different churches, and boy, if you can’t sing forget about getting up on stage to worship God, no one wants to hear an off key worship singer right!! Sorry for my judgmental cringe lol

So when I went to Karaoke I was a little anxious, I sat and watched and listened before I committed and a few things really stuck out and helped me step out. Everyone there was having fun, not everyone could sing, no one was excluded, everyone was encouraged, not everyone could sing lol, but seriously, it felt so good to release a song, to feel the energy grow within, to watch it affect others, and remember how to have fun.

I’m definitely planning to go back, maybe I’ll say hi to a few people and make some new friends!

Why I no longer march……

Two years ago I went to my first march for life in Washington DC it was quite an experience, I found more healing in my own heart, more self forgiveness. I remember this picture, I didn’t really want to share it because I felt like the smile on my face was really inappropriate for the message. I do believe the message, abortion kills a person and I know the stigma, pain, shame, grief,,, connected to it. Funny thing is the stigma and shame came after joining a church.

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I had mixed feelings throughout the 3-4 days, there were things I liked and things I didn’t like so much, a specific dislike is when they separate statistics by color of skin, and have specific times of prayer according to the color of skin. (this is a theme among some religious groups that I started to notice and not like before the march) To say we are One Race and stand for unity, then separate people groups by color is nothing but political and further divides people in my opinion.

There is no compassion from either side of the v. This particular us v. them fight has become a carrot to dangle in front of voters.

In 2016 the march for life brought in just under 1.2 mil with 1.3 mil in expenses. I don’t know if they changed the minds of anyone at the ballot, but that money could have helped a lot of people adopt, or to help teach, support, and follow through with women who choose life. Services like childcare and life coaching. It does seem a bit backward to vote ‘pro-life’ when that same vote takes away healthcare from many of those children that have a right to live. See I don’t believe you can force beliefs or morals (who decides what morals to follow anyway) on others through creating laws. Laws will never have the power to change someones heart, make it harder, maybe.

I’ve also stood on sidewalks with LIFE tape over my mouth praying in front of clinics thinking I was doing the right thing and maybe someone would change their mind. But I remember going into a clinic and seeing the picket signs, it made my heart harder. I’ve been involved in some large ministries that fight hardcore for pro-life politics, but I didn’t see many of those people taking in foster children, or adopting children from within the US. I didn’t see those ministries come alongside young women and men that choose to have a baby, or continue to be in their lives in any significant way.

As far as voting Republican in order to vote pro-life, I would suggest looking at the actual track record of those politicians. They’ve had numerous opportunities to change the laws and haven’t. Have you ever asked yourself why? maybe looked at where those politicians are getting there $$$ from? For instance, if they are getting money from insurance companies then they are not going to vote pro-life in any way that make a change. Which is why people like Tim Walberg continue to get elected for one reason, he’s pro-life and the voters are only concerned about that one issue.