Sounds so dangerously intriguing doesn’t it? Well, I thought so, that’s why I decided to go to a Super Blood Wolf Moon Women’s Circle…… It was such an uplifting time, much of it was spent writing a new story for ourselves, letting go of the past. I was so excited when I learned this and of course mine came out POEtic!!
I’m a wild one riding the waves, ready to jump into the flames
water & fire can they mix?
Watch me emerge, I am the flame that clears the way, I am the water that flows into each new day
Taking up my space within the earth, awaiting new birth
Flying in the air without a care
Soaring high and low, spiraling around, finding the flow
My hearts at peace with who I am, to anyone with a problem, be damed
I’ve embraced my shadow and let her in, part of the journey of integration
Letting all my parts out with a howling shout, this is me, the good, the bad, the ugly
My song will enchant you and fill you with peace, like a wave from the ocean filled with fiery heat
Dancing with the flames, to others its insane
But I have no fear of the fire, or my own desires
Sexual energy flows through my veins, in the deepest part, I will no longer be ashamed
I am woman hear me roar, this is my story, together with yours, we are numbers too big to ignore!
I used to be afraid of “CHAKRAS”, I was always taught they were an evil concept, part of a new age religion that was demonic, I know right!
Well, guess what I found while looking at the chakras, their meanings and doing ‘chakra work’? I found that its not evil or demonic, in fact, the whole concept can be seen in other places like the Enneagram, Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, the Myers–Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI), and even in some religious writings like The Seven Powers of wrath, The Gospel of Mary Magdalene, The Seven Inner Mansions of St. Theresa of Avila, the bible, they are all tools to help us navigate the darkness within, but I had always been taught that evil was external, outside demons that have to be exercised, making the darkness/shadow an external enemy. In my personal journey through dissociation and detachment this external focus made things worse because I was looking for outside deliverance. One day I started to notice patterns and cycles that followed being triggered and detaching/depersonalizing. When I started seeing these things, I had a choice to stay stuck or do the hard ass work to change. It’s not easy to choose to grow, but how can you follow the ‘primordial spiral upward’ if your stuck in the same cycle over and over again?
Following Maslow’s thought, you have to satisfy the unmet needs in order to move up, but you first have to recognize both your needs and what’s holding you back. Looking for an outward foe keeps us from seeing whats within. Its not a sin nature that has to be purged or pure to keep the demons away, its light and dark within. Its the past neglect, the abuse, and the trauma that haven’t been felt and dealt with, its the lies that we’ve believed about who we are and who we’re supposed to be, the fear, shame, and guilt that we hold inside.
“Evil will always look like good, Unless you tame your demons you will never know your angels” Richard Rohr “If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well.” Rainer Maria Rilke “I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free” Michelangelo
St Theresa of Avila “I began to think of the soul as if it were a castle made of a single diamond” “7 mansions with many rooms God dwells in the innermost mansion.” “All harm comes to us from failing to realize that God is near” “The soul can journey within these mansion to unite itself to God, so as to plant itself, like a tree, in the ‘living waters of life” “the sinner is actually one who doesn’t love themselves enough” “The journey is the souls essential mission“
In The Gospel of Mary Magadlene, she talks about 7 levels that must be overcome: 19) The first form is darkness, the second desire, the third ignorance, the fourth is the excitement of death, the fifth is the kingdom of the flesh, the sixth is the foolish wisdom of flesh, the seventh is the wrathful wisdom. These are the seven [powers] of wrath.
Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs starts with the basic needs to survive, and when needs from any level are not met, they hold us back. Recognizing where you are stuck and working through it is how we grow and change.
Development of the skills and concepts related to each chakra occurs progressively throughout life, in developmental stages just like the hierarchy of needs.
Chakra One: The right to be here and have what we need Chakra Two: The right to feel Chakra Three: The right to act, restricted by abusive authority Chakra Four: The right to love and be loved Chakra Five: The right to speak and hear truth Chakra Six: The right to see Chakra Seven: The right to know
We have so many tools available to us for the journey of going to the dark hard places within. Working through blockages in the chakra system, working through the 7 inner mansions and the 7 levels of wrath, or finding what you missed through the Hierarchy of needs and then there is THE ENNEAGRAM en·ne·a·gram /ˈenēəˌɡram/ – a nine-sided figure used in a particular system of analysis to represent the spectrum of possible personality types.
The enneagram types personalities based on how your basic needs were met as children, and is extraordinarily correct. Using this tool can help us SEE our patterns or cycles. “The Enneagram is full of wisdom for people who want to get out of their own way and become who they were created to be.” Ian Cron
So, the journey continues, I can’t wait, won’t you join me? There are several options for taking an initial enneagram test, this is a fast one. https://enneagramtest.net/
Singing, making music, creating art, its who I am. I’ve always had a song in my heart and a tune in my head, recently I just had to sing so I went to Karaoke I was a little nervous it had been a while. For the last 16 years I’ve been singing in choirs, on worship teams, leading worship sometimes and I had a lot of great experiences but today I remembered a few that had really been hard to let go of. The church is a funny place sometimes and when people are jealous and intimidated they don’t like to include you. One church actually told me there weren’t enough microphones for me to join the worship team. Well seriously, ok I tried to move on and be a bigger person, and then the pastor asked me one day where I would like to ‘serve’ in the church and I said um worship. He would let me do specials, or have me come up and share a prophetic chorus but his reply to what I had been told by his brother ‘the worship leader’ about there not being enough mics blew me away.
“Yes, they are intimidated by your voice and some of them are jealous, they have a lot of growing to do.”
What do you say to that? at the time I laughed because there was a time when I was younger that I enjoyed intimidating people, it was fun, but I had grown out of that thank god and I was really hurt. Things like this happened over and over again at different churches, and boy, if you can’t sing forget about getting up on stage to worship God, no one wants to hear an off key worship singer right!! Sorry for my judgmental cringe lol
So when I went to Karaoke I was a little anxious, I sat and watched and listened before I committed and a few things really stuck out and helped me step out. Everyone there was having fun, not everyone could sing, no one was excluded, everyone was encouraged, not everyone could sing lol, but seriously, it felt so good to release a song, to feel the energy grow within, to watch it affect others, and remember how to have fun.
I’m definitely planning to go back, maybe I’ll say hi to a few people and make some new friends!
Have you noticed how often the word “THEY” is used when talking about people who aren’t just like us? Well I have and it really got to me tonight. In reference to a post containing economic growth facts, and the first reply I got was “THEY have their own “facts” which are lies that THEY have been told. The media has THEM duped. I pray THEY see through the lies.” Sadly sooooo many people live, in an US v. THEM world and from my experience, its exhausting and gets you nowhere. Who are THEY anyways? All of this made me think about my 9th Great Grandmother Provided Southwick Gaskill, her family practiced Quaker religious beliefs, and at that time there was an US v. THEM between the Quakers and the Protestants/Puritans. They worshiped the same God but, they didn’t agree on how to do that. The Puritan church thought that EVERYONE had to worship as they did, attending services and paying tithes. Provided’s family didn’t like the way the Protestants worshiped and continued to worship the Lord their God with all their hearts, souls, minds, and strength in their homes. They didn’t believe you needed a Priest, church, money system, or hierarchy, they didn’t agree with the need for compelling religious uniformity in society,,, The Gaskill family had been arrested several times for not attending ‘church’ and not paying their tithes. CAN YOU IMAGINE? I can. You see, when Quaker missionaries arrived in the US in 1655 they were not liked, especially when they reached Massachusetts, where four Quakers were executed. They were persecuted because of their threat to the Puritan church and the Governmental authority. I wanted to understand all of this better because it seems so familiar.
I was never a big fan of history class, but I remember the basics, the refugees made an exodus and wanted to establish a country in which the separation of church and state, and the freedom to practice one’s faith without fear of persecution, was guaranteed. That guarantee was: “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof…” but it didn’t start until 1789.
I found that The Friends/Quaker church started in England in 1652, by George Fox. By 1680 10,000 Quakers had been imprisoned and 243 had died of torture. The founder believed that the presence of God was found within people rather than in churches, all people, men and women equally. He experienced what he referred to as “openings,” instances in which he felt God was talking directly to him. In 1676 George Fox came to America to encourage the ending of slavery among Quakers.
There is so much more to the history, but back to my 9th great grandmother Provided. A poem was written about her experience by John Greenleaf Whittier in 1842-44. He thought that Provided’s mother’s name would be more poetic (I think Provided is perfect) so he named it The Ballad of Cassandra Southwick. There is speculation that he wrote this poem and others to prick the conscious of Quakers to end slavery. Here is the the history of the Southwick’s that Whittier used in his writing:
In 1657 Lawrence and Cassandra Southwick were put in jail for hosting two visiting Quaker preachers, Lawrence Southwick was found to be a member of the First Church of Salem and was released to be dealt with by the leaders of that church. Cassandra remained in jail for seven weeks and was fined forty shillings for possessing a paper written by their two visitors. The paper was considered heretical by Governor John Endicott and others.
In 1658 the Southwicks and their son Josiah were put in jail for twenty weeks for being Quakers.
In 1659, the two youngest children, Provided and her brother Daniel were sentenced to be sold as slaves in the Barbadoes for unpaid fines – fines related to their being Quakers. (see the featured picture) The sentence was not carried out, however because no one would buy them, no one would take them. After that, the entire family was sent to Shelter Island, New York together.
In 1660 Lawrence and his wife Cassandra died within three days of each other on Shelter Island.
Two years ago I went to my first march for life in Washington DC it was quite an experience, I found more healing in my own heart, more self forgiveness. I remember this picture, I didn’t really want to share it because I felt like the smile on my face was really inappropriate for the message. I do believe the message, abortion kills a person and I know the stigma, pain, shame, grief,,, connected to it. Funny thing is the stigma and shame came after joining a church.
I had mixed feelings throughout the 3-4 days, there were things I liked and things I didn’t like so much, a specific dislike is when they separate statistics by color of skin, and have specific times of prayer according to the color of skin. (this is a theme among some religious groups that I started to notice and not like before the march) To say we are One Race and stand for unity, then separate people groups by color is nothing but political and further divides people in my opinion.
There is no compassion from either side of the v. This particular us v. them fight has become a carrot to dangle in front of voters.
In 2016 the march for life brought in just under 1.2 mil with 1.3 mil in expenses. I don’t know if they changed the minds of anyone at the ballot, but that money could have helped a lot of people adopt, or to help teach, support, and follow through with women who choose life. Services like childcare and life coaching. It does seem a bit backward to vote ‘pro-life’ when that same vote takes away healthcare from many of those children that have a right to live. See I don’t believe you can force beliefs or morals (who decides what morals to follow anyway) on others through creating laws. Laws will never have the power to change someones heart, make it harder, maybe.
I’ve also stood on sidewalks with LIFE tape over my mouth praying in front of clinics thinking I was doing the right thing and maybe someone would change their mind. But I remember going into a clinic and seeing the picket signs, it made my heart harder. I’ve been involved in some large ministries that fight hardcore for pro-life politics, but I didn’t see many of those people taking in foster children, or adopting children from within the US. I didn’t see those ministries come alongside young women and men that choose to have a baby, or continue to be in their lives in any significant way.
As far as voting Republican in order to vote pro-life, I would suggest looking at the actual track record of those politicians. They’ve had numerous opportunities to change the laws and haven’t. Have you ever asked yourself why? maybe looked at where those politicians are getting there $$$ from? For instance, if they are getting money from insurance companies then they are not going to vote pro-life in any way that make a change. Which is why people like Tim Walberg continue to get elected for one reason, he’s pro-life and the voters are only concerned about that one issue.